“Fear that I was very different from everyone else. Fear that deep down inside I was a shallow fraud, that after the revolution or after Jesus came down to straighten everything out, everyone from hippies to hard-hats would unfold and blossom into the beautiful people they were while I would remain a gnarled little wart in the corner, oozing bile and giving off putrid smells.”
Mark Vonnegut“What occurs to people when they read Kurt [Vonnegut] is that things are much more up for grabs than they thought they were. The world is a slightly different place just because they read a damn book. Imagine that.”
Mark Vonnegut“Writing was a spiritual exercise for my father, the only thing he really believed in.”
Mark Vonnegut, Armageddon in Retrospect“Reading and writing are in themselves subversive acts. What they subvert is the notion that things have to be the way they are, that you are alone, that no one has ever felt the way you have.”
Mark Vonnegut, Armageddon in Retrospect“Having their feelings make sense is how people get their kicks.”
Mark Vonnegut, The Eden Express: A Memoir of Insanity“After my first few tastes I was pretty much hooked. I'd have dry spells, months without any or only piddling amounts of grace, but I never forgot about it or stopped wanting it.”
Mark Vonnegut, The Eden Express: A Memoir of Insanity“It's regrets that make painful memories. When I was crazy I did everything just right.”
Mark Vonnegut, The Eden Express: A Memoir of Insanity“The way I played music there was the way I wanted to farm, chop wood, cook, make love, raise children. Everything. A lo of it had to do with things I felt while I played. If only I could feel that sense of total absorption in what I was doing when I was doing other things. It was more than absorption, it was spontaneity, competence, a sense of grace and playfulness, of being in touch with an inexhaustible source of energy and beauty.”
Mark Vonnegut, The Eden Express: A Memoir of Insanity“I’m subject to occasional theological nightmares. The one that leaves me in a cold sweat every time is, I arrive at the pearly gates and the first thing I’m asked is where I went to college.”
Mark Vonnegut, The Eden Express: A Memoir of Insanity“Fear that I was very different from everyone else. Fear that deep down inside I was a shallow fraud, that after the revolution or after Jesus came down to straighten everything out, everyone from hippies to hard-hats would unfold and blossom into the beautiful people they were while I would remain a gnarled little wart in the corner, oozing bile and giving off putrid smells.”
Mark Vonnegut, The Eden Express: A Memoir of Insanity