“Happiness is something you lay siege to, it is a battle like a game of go. I will take hold of all the pain and snuff it out.”
Shan Sa“I, the ordinary restless child, the plain adolescent, the commoner who had been a nun twice, would prove to be a Daughter of Heaven.”
Shan Sa“I talk to trees and animals. We have interesting conversations about food, weather, and love. They sometimes can predict the future.”
Shan Sa“I envied these women I saw before me, their beauty still intact. Life has its revenge of life. Untimely death is the secret of eternal youth.”
Shan Sa, Empress“Men’s strengths go hand in hand with their weaknesses. That is why there is no such thing as an invincible warrior, and why heroes die.”
Shan Sa, Empress“The moon in all her immaculate purity hung in the sky, laughing at this world of dust. She congratulated me for my carefully considered maneuvers and invited me to share in her eternal solitude.”
Shan Sa, Empress“In the closed world of the gynaeceum, despite the gardens and parkland extending beyong the horizon, despite the insurmountable walls separating pavillions and palaces, the tangled web of our fate was inescapable. Why did these women love each other to the point of madness? Why did they loathe one another so vehemently, and why did sworn enemies feel such horror and fascination for one another? Why should furious hate become obsession, then intoxication and the very reason to live?Because love and hate were the two heads of the demon.”
Shan Sa, Empress“My position at the Palace is our one opportunity. Have confidence in my destiny. Do not weep.”
Shan Sa, Empress“Endless moons, an opaque universe, thunder, tornadoes, the quaking earth. Rare moments of peace; forehead up against my knees, arms around my head, I though, I listened, I longed not to exist. but life was there, a transparent pearl, a star revolving slowly on its own axis.”
Shan Sa, Empress