“Helplessness didn't have to be my identity, I wasn't condemned to it. I was willing - able - to change. Our enmeshment had been enabled by my belief that I needed [my mom] to help me, to take care of things for me - and to save me - but, back in the home where I'd learned this helplessness, I found I no longer felt that I was trapped in it.”
Aspen Matis“The small word, “No.” I’d see its deity.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“I wanted him to look at me like maybe I was magic.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“All I could think as he was speaking was that, if he touched me at all, all the miles I’d walked, the pain I’d felt, the beauty I’d drunken like milk, like good wine making me happy, the four million steps I’d taken, would all add up to nothing. They’d be stolen.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“Chinese proverb says that a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. This journey had begun with the coercion of my body, with my own wild hope.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“Each year, Gracie Henderson moons a thousand strangers, collects their shocked faces in an annual photo album.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“But the truth was stranger than an aimless road, it always was.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“When I felt strongly I would say it strongly.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“I felt unready to hold myself responsible for the decision if I slept with him”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“I was going to mean what I said, to be direct and firm.I found my moleskin notebook and on the page behind the pages addressed to Never-Never and my family—two unsent letters—I wrote: I am the director of my life.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir“After twelve years of trying, I just decided to stop missing.”
Aspen Matis, Girl in the Woods: A Memoir