“I don't know. There's just something kind of mortifying to me about the intensity of those feelings. I remember them so clearly.”

“I was basically born knowing how to casually stalk people on social media.”

“I can’t seem to shake this perpetual awareness of being Molly.”

“It's stillness and pressure and rhythm and breathing.”

“I feel like I'm supposed to make some comment to underscore the ridiculousness of it all, but honestly? It's sort of nice not to have to be cynical for a change. I guess it feels like I'm a part of something.”

“And it's almost too perfect. Almost too Disney.”

“I guess what I mean is that sometimes it seems like everyone knows who I am except me.”

“Why would I want to watch other people kissing," I say, "when I could be kissing you?”

“From: bluegreen118@gmail.com To: hourtohour.notetonote@gmail.comDate: Jan 7 at 7:23 AMSubject: Re: Really?On the Tumblr-you mean creeksecrets? .....But I really don't think I'm wrong. Jacques a dit. Right?-BlueSo, Yeah, I've been careless. I guess I left a trail of clues. and I shouldn't be surprised that Blue put them together. Maybe I kind of wanted him to.Jacques a dit is "Simon Says" in French, by the way, And it's obviously not as clever as I thought it was.”

“I don't know. There's just something kind of mortifying to me about the intensity of those feelings. I remember them so clearly.”

“But I'm tired of coming out. All I ever do is come out. I try not to change,but I keep changing, in all these tiny ways ..... And every freaking time, I have to reintroduce myself to the universe all over again.”