“I was passive by nature. I had always been. Arguing felt unnatural and uncomfortable. I was always agreeing even when I didn’t really, instinctively looking for ways to forfeit power, to become more dependent, to be taken care of. I realized how intensely Icecap reminded me of Jacob. They were similar, both diligent and harsh in their judgments—and my big brother’s sureness had always comforted me.But as I ran on sore legs to keep up with Icecap, my tendency toward silence stressed me.”

“The small word, “No.” I’d see its deity.”

“I wanted him to look at me like maybe I was magic.”

“All I could think as he was speaking was that, if he touched me at all, all the miles I’d walked, the pain I’d felt, the beauty I’d drunken like milk, like good wine making me happy, the four million steps I’d taken, would all add up to nothing. They’d be stolen.”

“Chinese proverb says that a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. This journey had begun with the coercion of my body, with my own wild hope.”

“Each year, Gracie Henderson moons a thousand strangers, collects their shocked faces in an annual photo album.”

“But the truth was stranger than an aimless road, it always was.”

“When I felt strongly I would say it strongly.”

“I felt unready to hold myself responsible for the decision if I slept with him”

“I was going to mean what I said, to be direct and firm.I found my moleskin notebook and on the page behind the pages addressed to Never-Never and my family—two unsent letters—I wrote: I am the director of my life.”

“After twelve years of trying, I just decided to stop missing.”