“I wrote. I wrote all the things I couldn’t say to him. I wrote about how much I believed in us. I wrote about how much I trusted God. I wrote that I was praying for him. I wrote down all the jokes I could remember, which weren’t many.”
Kimberly Novosel“I decided I would fill the emptiness in me with God and with paint.”
Kimberly Novosel“Go for it, my heart said, my heart always said.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved“On day one of the drive, I saw my first dome sky. The world was so flat that I could see the level horizon all around me and the sky looked like a dome. Skies like that will give you perspective when nothing else will. The second day, a tumbleweed blew across the interstate. I’m in a western movie, I said to myself, laughing. I found it so much easier to laugh now that this weight had been lifted from my shoulders.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved“It was strange walking through the empty apartment. My battered purple room was gone, Brittany’s bruised blue was gone. Two coats covered everything. It was like none of it had ever happened.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved“I wrote. I wrote all the things I couldn’t say to him. I wrote about how much I believed in us. I wrote about how much I trusted God. I wrote that I was praying for him. I wrote down all the jokes I could remember, which weren’t many.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved“I threw his framed picture off my balcony just to hear my heart break.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved“But I tended not to date men who ever showed up for me.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved“I thought about how the past can become so small. An entire day, 24 separate, heavy hours, becomes the size of a tiny brown leaf falling from a tree. Before you know it, a whole year is just a pile of dead leaves on the ground. The year or so I’d spent in love with Chad was starting to feel so long ago, swept away by the wind. I knew that this year would soon feel far away too.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved“That’s how it felt – that the loss of him had a life of its own. I lived with it as I could have lived with him. Some nights it was quiet and sometimes it pounded on my door.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved“I used to cover my windows in heavy curtains, never drawn. Now I danced in the sunlight on my hardwood floors.”
Kimberly Novosel, Loved