“The feeling doesn’t always match the loss. Sometimes the bigger ones are easier to take, like ocean waves. Smaller, human losses, the ones that carry a sense of fault, a choice, a wrong turn – they haunt, fuse in you, become impossible to remove.”
Catherine Lacey“It depressed me to think that I might have been looking at another person but seeing only myself.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“I sometimes wondered why I even answered the phone, but I guess I always had the hope that it would be someone else, some other way of life calling for me.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“She missed his nothing. It had felt like something.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“But what had really happened? It was still unclear. Was it possible nothing of any significance had ever happened between us and our ending was just the sad process of realizing this?”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“Speaking felt impossible, as contained and enclosed as she was, a longing that went on a loop, a longing for nothing at all.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“I closed my eyes, tried to get as far away from myself as I could.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“She was sure no one had ever been more in love than they were in those weeks, consumed by such longing, wanting to just be alive beside each other.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“I couldn't decide how to feel about what he was saying, whether it was all nonsense or just more evidence that I would never understand this world.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“It was grotesque and eerie, too strange of a dream.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers“He would never be that way again. He would never have the power of that specific kind of not-knowing.”
Catherine Lacey, The Answers