“There are memories I am better off without. Things better lost forever.”

“There are memories I am better off without. Things better lost forever.”

“I could see it all. The hand on the shoulder, then the hug. The mouths that find each other through the tears, the moment when guilt and the certainty that things must go no further gives way to lust and the certainty that they cannot stop.”

“There were never going to be any happy ending for me. I know that now. But that is all right. That is all right.”

“I want to sleep. To find a safe place somewhere, and close my eyes, and rest, like an animal. That is what I am. An animal. Living from moment to moment, day to day, trying to make sense of the world in which I find myself.”

“Pain, or pleasure. I could not tell where one ended and the other began.”

“To create myself from nothing.”

“I am floating, I thought, completely without anchor, at the mercy of the wind.”

“And then, when there is nothing else between us but love, we can begin to find a way to truly be together.”

“He forgave you though,' said Claire. 'He never held it against you, ever. All he cared about was that you lived, and that you got better. He would have given everything for that. Everything. Nothing else mattered.”

“I step back further, until I feel cold tiles against my back. It is then I get the glimmer that I associate with memory. As my mind tries to settle on it, it flutters away, like ashes caught in a breeze, and I realize that in my life there is a then, a before, though before what I cannot say, and there is a now, and there is nothing between the two but a long, silent emptiness that has led me here, to me and him, in this house.”

“It's so difficult, isn't it? To see what's going on when you're in the absolute middle of something? It's only with hindsight we can see things for what they are.”